Waiting, it seems to be my lot in life or so it feels. I have often struggled and at times still do with waiting, but I have learned something recently and straight from God too (those are the best lessons)- waiting is a verb! Before I could learn this lesson, though, I had to be broken; more broken than I have been in a long time. See I was complaining to God about having to wait, “I’m tired of waiting, God. I want to do something.” And many such pleadings, but then in that moment when I ran out of things to say God whispered to me, “Are you willing to do nothing for my sake?” That stopped me; was I? I pleaded, I thought, I cried and then, oh so sweet, I surrendered. Was it hard? Yes. Do I struggle? More than you can imagine, but I know where my peace is and it is to Him I turn.
As I said I have learned waiting is a verb. It is not just about sitting around twiddling thumbs. The years of waiting are a time to do. These are the years we have to learn and serve freely. Here are a few things that God has provided for me in this waiting period.
Recently my church has started an emergency response team. We are in the training stage right now, and so far I have been able to get my First Aid/CPR, chainsaw safety, and power line safety certifications. I am also working on the FEMA IS classes (well, I’m supposed to be). Who knows how this will be used in the future, but it is definitely good to know!
God has also given me the opportunity to volunteer once a week at our local crisis pregnancy center. I absolutely love it! Being a part of saving the lives of many innocent children and helping many women/families that have no where else to go is a blessing. To see the faces of the girls and women that come in, some are heartbreaking and some are so full of joy. Also in my free time I have been able to read some of the curriculum for the parenting classes we offer.
Of course I have been working also. As of right now I am working at Allstate and cleaning. I rather enjoy both and I most definitely am learning from both jobs.
Another opportunity God has presented to me is being a part of coordinating our local father/daughter dance. My dear friend asked me at the beginning of this year to come alongside her and another lovely friend as the third person on the “team”. It has been so exciting so far and a little daunting, but this is God’s dance and He has everything perfectly planned.
Of course what better to spend my time of waiting than with my family. I have had the delight to visit with several family members just in the past weeks. And there is the perk of being a homemaker in training (if that is the path God takes me down). Being able to hone my gardening skills will be fun this year (some day I will be like my Nana)! And as always there are the kids at church I can pour more into.
As you can see waiting has not caused me to become lax or lazy, but just the opposite. By surrendering all my time to God (moment by moment preferably), He has opened up many opportunities to serve Him, serve others, and even learn new skills.
With all of this going on it is sometimes hard to stop, but the sweetest part of this period is by far my time with God. Spending time with my Beloved Bridegroom could never be matched. Though I am often distracted, using this time to know Him more will carry me so much farther than any other skill I pick up through life.
In what ways is God asking you to wait? How have you been using the time?
Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!