I will be twenty-one in a few days.
Am I supposed to be excited? This birthday holds nothing exciting for me except the fact that I gat to celebrate another birthday. Mama threw a wonderful party for my brother and I both (he turned thirteen on Christmas day) and everyone is excited for me about being twenty-one, but I am not. I mean I am excited this year to really draw closer to my Lord and really learn what I will need in the future (the things I should have been learning already, erg). Other than that what is twenty-one to me? I have no desire to drink or gamble and really that is all there is to be excited about when it comes to the world. With eighteen at least I had voting to look forward to.
Another thing, I am a twenty-one year old lady and college graduate; what do I do now now?
I would love to be a stay-at-home-daughter but I do not see that happening for me. I have insurance(s) to pay and Papa does not want me sitting around the house (I am an adult, I should act like one). I am thinking perhaps of getting at least a part time job (as I have done for the past seven years) but where? That is my prayer…actually it is “What is my next step, Lord?” I want my whole life to honour Him and be in His will. Right now, I am thinking about putting in an application at our library, the Christian bookstore and a little boutique in town. I do not know which one God wants me at or if he even wants me at any of them or if I am going to have to get a job at all. Papa is actually starting a business (hopefully it works out) and I may be able to “work for him.” It is rather exciting!
Ah, dear twenty-one, I do look forward to you but not with the excite of so many others. I look forward to another year drawing closer to my Lord and perhaps my dreams? Whatever God has in store for me I will, as Susan, “go on and take the adventure that shall fall...”
Through Christ,
Lady Helen
P.S. My dears, please take a look at the two polls I have posted on the <side. That would be a tremendous help to me. Thanks much!